it has been difficult for me to sleep these past few nights. the brain has been thinking alot lately. i hate the feeling of hot and cold. its like one moment you know that someone is yours, definitely yours but the next moment, you feel like he'll be gone in a second. i think the exact answer is i am insecure not with the love or relationship but with myself. sometimes, i feel that i am not worthy enough to be loved. its not me to have exceptionally low confident level but lately, it happens. and when it happens, it felt as if a knife has stabbed through my heart and as much as i want to see the blood to make me feel real, it doesnt. i just need someone to tell me im okay, and that im really okay. its the first day of ramadhan, may this month be a blessing in disguise for me cause i know i've not been an angel the last one.